hardly a freshman in the game of life and yet a Senior completing college.

Here I sit. almost 4 am. I am so exhausted my eyes feel like they are going to fall out.
But they aren't.
I am working on a senior project - developing my own non profit organization. Almost 4 years of schooling has led me up to this moment. I am a senior, but just for tonight a part of me feels like a freshman.

I sit here with hope
and with anxiety.

I am worried about how my teacher is going to like my project.
And then I am not because I know it is good.

I am thinking about my future - its so real I can almost taste it,
and I am realizing that this is my future - late nights.

I am almost giddy with excitement for my "baby"
and fearful because I realize that there is much for me to learn.